Sometimes it is hard to be good. There are many things to pull us down. I have so many thoughts in my mind, it is rumbling endlessly. It is like being overcame by a huge wave, it pulls you rock bottom and then it sends you back up for just long enough to grasp some vital air to keep you alive, so that it can torture you for more. There are many things i dont understand. There are many question marks.
I know i have made mistakes in life. All along i am not being decisive enough. I tend to drag things through the mud and problems tend to get worse like that. Sometimes i am not sure how i am in the position i am now. But i know i am blessed because i am still living and i have a family there for me. There are many who might be less fortunate so i shouldn’t be complaining so much.
God is there to answer me i am sure. The answer is probably already there but i cant see it clearly yet. Maybe i should close my eyes and start listening instead.
Good luck.