Lee Ping Loon

Sometimes it is hard to be good. There are many things to pull us down. I have so many thoughts in my mind, it is rumbling endlessly. It is like being overcame by a huge wave, it pulls you rock bottom and then it sends you back up for just long enough to grasp some vital air to keep you alive, so that it can torture you for more. There are many things i dont understand. There are many question marks.

I know i have made mistakes in life. All along i am not being decisive enough. I tend to drag things through the mud and problems tend to get worse like that. Sometimes i am not sure how i am in the position i am now. But i know i am blessed because i am still living and i have a family there for me. There are many who might be less fortunate so i shouldn’t be complaining so much.

God is there to answer me i am sure. The answer is probably already there but i cant see it clearly yet. Maybe i should close my eyes and start listening instead.

Good luck.

1 Thessalonians 5:18

In everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

God says we must give thanks for everything in our lives. Everything happens for a reason and things dont happen also for a reason. We must show our gratefulness to God and keep Him in our mind in everything we do, this helps us to do things in the ways of our God and keeps us in the right path.

It doesn’t matter whether it is an important decision or just a routine daily choices we have to make, give thanks and ask Him for direction and wisdom.

Instead of focusing on what we dont have or what we should have been, instead of critisizing what is wrong and whoever’s fault it was, we should give thanks instead for what we already have and how we are blessed and how we have not got any worse than now.

In World War II, there were two super powers which were trying to conquer the world, one from the west; Germany and one from the east; Japan. Both had achieved a considerable amount of successes in their ambitions to conquer each end of their world before their progress were stopped by a united allied forces with helping hand possibly from the acts of God.

Both countries were given hefy penalties, embargoes and restricted under treaties to humble them and to curb the recurrance of their ambitions and eagerness to conquer the world again. Where it had succeeded in the case of Germany, now not considered as one of the super power in the world in any sense, it seems to have failed with Japan somehow.

The Japanese, with their culture which emphasizes on sheer hard work, respect, determination and loyalty had succeeded in overcoming the troubles which follow the end of World War II and are now becoming a big influence all over the world financially, technologically and culturally.

The Yen is a major currency alongside the US dollars. Chances are almost everyone of us have something japanese in us now. What car do you drive? What TV are you watching? What Hi-Fi are you listening? Have you had a Sony Walkman? Are you or your children played or playing the Playstation? Nintendo? Does Super mario rings a bell? You must have heard of the word Sushi? Sayonara? Arigato? Almost every child in the world knows the super hero called Ultraman. A big number of them are addicted in japanese anime and manga.

When we look at our lives, it is not surprising to find the many japanese influences in them.  You have to really admire how the Japanese had came so far after the hardship of the end of WWII. They are now a nation held in high esteem all over the world, they have a big say financially, their technology is adopted and loved and they are becoming a force as well culturally, especially amongst the younger generation. 

The new generation of Japanese had succeeded at what their more aggresive forefathers had failed to achieve, that is dominating and influencing the world. This is not by accident or good fortune. This is a result of the positive attitude that has been drilled in each of the japanese kids since the day they were borned. They have became a society that is hard working, willing to sacrifice and have respect for the things/people around them. They have lost a world war but is now winning the world over in a legitimate and humane way. 

To this, i will say to them, おめでとう!!    

The most important part in life journey is done and dusted now. A new chapter is in the process of being written. I hope it is a beautiful one. 

One of the most difficult things ever to arrange in the world is a wedding dinner. If i have a choice, i will make do without it. It has been such a pain. I hope this is over soon.

Colossians 3:13
Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Updated : 22nd November 2008

I dont have a choice but to remember vividly what you have done to us in the past. Dont talk about respect, humanity and loyalty if you didnt practice it as well.Lest we forget:-

- How you have treated my brother and my sister while they were over there at your country.

- How you have always try to make a bad name for the 6 of us and our mother.

- How you have always try to poison my father about us.

- How you have coaxed my father to transfer money over to build a house or some shit and we see no benefits of it ourselves.

- How you have tried to rob and alter our father’s will when he was still alive!

- How you felt shocked and disappointed the will has not your names in it.

- How you are so eager to ask for money from a widow and children who had just lost their father.

- How you are so eager to get the flat back.

- How you are treating us like outcasts of the family .

- How you are not respecting our mother.

- How you not even bother to ask about if we are able to survive without our father and with 4 children still studying.

- How you are always the shit stirrer trying to divide one family over the other.

- How in your world, all other people’ kids are always bad.

- How you have never realised and said sorry for all of the above.

So, dont come back and tell me what i should do, how i should make the family proud, how the other surnames are millionaires and all these nonsenses. If you ever wonder why we seems to be keeping a distance, that’s because you first distanced from us. To mend, trace back your steps and come closer, dont expect us to do it for you.

Now i have grown up, i have learned to hide my real emotion in public to mix in, but some thoughts will never change in my heart.

You bullied a widow and her six children in time of need and grief for your own selfish greed. What good can you ever come to?

Oh, btw, remember the swimming pool? The mother of all blood clots that started all the mayhem that took away our father’s life? Stop accusing our mother for not knowing how to take care of our father! Stop accusing the children for giving him a hard time. We all know who has got the blood on their hands!

I rest my case.

Many people ushered in the new year with new hope, for me, the shits still linger on, the same way, just on different calender year. It has been a mostly unhappy and stressed year and the trend continues very much the same at the crack of dusk of 2008. I dont feel like i am in control anymore, pressures are mounting every corner and i am living each day less and less happy. The only positive when the previous year gone by is maybe that i now have 365 days less to endure the shits. If i have enough courage, i could already been in a rectangular wooden box.

RIP

Our Prime Minister very proudly announced a few days ago one Sheikh Muzhaphar Shukor to be the first Malaysian Angkasawan (astronaut). However, in reality he will only be in space as a “Spaceflight Participant” according to NASA. “Spaceflight Participant” or also known as space tourist is a vacancy you can acquire if you have the MONEY (USD 30 million) and if you are healthy enough to withstand some massive G-force pressures on your body. So, i really dont understand why are some people so proud of all this! He is neither an astronaut nor a cosmonaut, he is just a space travelling tourist paying (malaysian tax payers’ money) his way up there! Lol, what is there to be proud of? He is contributing nothing other than just wasting space in space, wasting our hard earned money in the process too!! This is another example of Malaysia Boleh mentality, doing useless idiotic thing so we have our names in the history book for the sake of it. Maybe in reality, they are actually really celebrating the first malay in space! Hooray! Syabas!

Woooooooi, dont forget the Wau Bulan, Congkak and Nasi lemak while up there!

You know your country is ****ed up, when you see this :

You can see it from http://www.mps.gov.my/hanjing/dog.html, or you can go to the main site http://www.mps.gov.my and follow the scrolling text. This is the official website of Majlis Perbandaran Selayang. Impossible? Believe it!

You see, there are some people in this country that are so very selfish. The things they dont like or dont like to see, they will want to get rid of them no matter what, without taking into considerations of other people feeling who might like those things. Things i mentioned here are not so taboo stuffs or illegal things like drugs, porno material or any dangerous weapons. We are only talking about dogs (mens’ best friends!) and pigs (wow i love that bacon and ham, yummy!). They want to get rid of things they dont like (but other people like) by giving childish reason or sometimes, they dont even need to give any, they just do it as they please!!  When the issue gets heated and gets out of hand, then comes the Tai Chi masters to shove the responsibilities to each other. When the issue falls to the highest authority of the country, most of the time you will get the now famous answer “I dont know” and there goes your concerns, worries and angsts getting buried 80 feet down the shit hole never to be dugged out again.

Seeing such “Pertandingan Menangkap Anjing” is being organised by our local authority, maybe we citizens can suggest some more beneficial competitions in return! I will start.

Catch The Corrupt Politician Competition

Who can participate? - Everyone, Anyone

How? Catch a corrupted politician and haul them to court

How to win? Winners will be determined by the total number of corrupted politicians they catch and the total amount of money they corrupted off the country and the people, bonus 10 points for catching corrupt politician who also always falls asleep at work

When is the competition ending? It never ends until all corrupted politicians are gone

Prize money? 1st prize : RM1, 2nd prize, RM0.50, 3rd prize : RM0.10 (Take it as a token rather than reward because you are doing a great deed for people and country)

Still reading??? Get your ass moving already!! Time is now and time is short! 

I am average and things are doing my head in.