Lee Ping Loon

Today, another attack! It’s ridiculous how she is planning one attack after another. I must have stepped on a giant size tigress’s tail in the workplace, lol.

Its amusing when you see someone critisizes things or issues which originated from themselves in the first place but now they are standing from another platform and hold no responsibilities to the issues anymore. It is like watching a clown shitting all over the place in a room and then blaming the next person in the room why there is so much dungs uncleaned.

This is good learning experience i believe.

Half a year gone and it is very clear that things are not moving how they are supposed to be. It is like landing on a boat without a sail or rudder in the middle of the ocean, there is no direction at all and it is moving in circle. To make things more uneasy, there is a need to deal with the annoying bugs, worms and insects inside this boat.

Bring me out of here?

Nearing or on 25th of December every year, i have seen and heard people write or say it time and again, “Merry Xmas”. Everytime i see or hear it i feel really weird. Why? Try imagining this; how would you feel if you receive a birthday card on your birthday and in it it was written; “Happy Birthday To You, Mr/Ms X”, or when they sing the birthday song to you they replace your name with “Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to X…..happy birthday to you!”

Do you get my drift? Christmas is  about celebrating Jesus Christ’s birthday. God sent his son to earth to save human kind. It doesn’t matter if your religion is not christianity, the first part still holds true, christmas is about Jesus christ’s birthday. So, if we know it is someone’s birthday and we know his very name, how can we pretend we dont know about it and put an “X”? Isn’t that a tad impolite? You wont even do that to a stranger i bet. Right?

So, to all of you who happened to be reading this, i wish you a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Sometimes it is hard to be good. There are many things to pull us down. I have so many thoughts in my mind, it is rumbling endlessly. It is like being overcame by a huge wave, it pulls you rock bottom and then it sends you back up for just long enough to grasp some vital air to keep you alive, so that it can torture you for more. There are many things i dont understand. There are many question marks.

I know i have made mistakes in life. All along i am not being decisive enough. I tend to drag things through the mud and problems tend to get worse like that. Sometimes i am not sure how i am in the position i am now. But i know i am blessed because i am still living and i have a family there for me. There are many who might be less fortunate so i shouldn’t be complaining so much.

God is there to answer me i am sure. The answer is probably already there but i cant see it clearly yet. Maybe i should close my eyes and start listening instead.

Good luck.

1 Thessalonians 5:18

In everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

God says we must give thanks for everything in our lives. Everything happens for a reason and things dont happen also for a reason. We must show our gratefulness to God and keep Him in our mind in everything we do, this helps us to do things in the ways of our God and keeps us in the right path.

It doesn’t matter whether it is an important decision or just a routine daily choices we have to make, give thanks and ask Him for direction and wisdom.

Instead of focusing on what we dont have or what we should have been, instead of critisizing what is wrong and whoever’s fault it was, we should give thanks instead for what we already have and how we are blessed and how we have not got any worse than now.

In World War II, there were two super powers which were trying to conquer the world, one from the west; Germany and one from the east; Japan. Both had achieved a considerable amount of successes in their ambitions to conquer each end of their world before their progress were stopped by a united allied forces with helping hand possibly from the acts of God.

Both countries were given hefy penalties, embargoes and restricted under treaties to humble them and to curb the recurrance of their ambitions and eagerness to conquer the world again. Where it had succeeded in the case of Germany, now not considered as one of the super power in the world in any sense, it seems to have failed with Japan somehow.

The Japanese, with their culture which emphasizes on sheer hard work, respect, determination and loyalty had succeeded in overcoming the troubles which follow the end of World War II and are now becoming a big influence all over the world financially, technologically and culturally.

The Yen is a major currency alongside the US dollars. Chances are almost everyone of us have something japanese in us now. What car do you drive? What TV are you watching? What Hi-Fi are you listening? Have you had a Sony Walkman? Are you or your children played or playing the Playstation? Nintendo? Does Super mario rings a bell? You must have heard of the word Sushi? Sayonara? Arigato? Almost every child in the world knows the super hero called Ultraman. A big number of them are addicted in japanese anime and manga.

When we look at our lives, it is not surprising to find the many japanese influences in them.  You have to really admire how the Japanese had came so far after the hardship of the end of WWII. They are now a nation held in high esteem all over the world, they have a big say financially, their technology is adopted and loved and they are becoming a force as well culturally, especially amongst the younger generation. 

The new generation of Japanese had succeeded at what their more aggresive forefathers had failed to achieve, that is dominating and influencing the world. This is not by accident or good fortune. This is a result of the positive attitude that has been drilled in each of the japanese kids since the day they were borned. They have became a society that is hard working, willing to sacrifice and have respect for the things/people around them. They have lost a world war but is now winning the world over in a legitimate and humane way. 

To this, i will say to them, おめでとう!!    

The most important part in life journey is done and dusted now. A new chapter is in the process of being written. I hope it is a beautiful one. 

One of the most difficult things ever to arrange in the world is a wedding dinner. If i have a choice, i will make do without it. It has been such a pain. I hope this is over soon.

Colossians 3:13
Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Updated : 22nd November 2008

I dont have a choice but to remember vividly what you have done to us in the past. Dont talk about respect, humanity and loyalty if you didnt practice it as well.Lest we forget:-

- How you have treated my brother and my sister while they were over there at your country.

- How you have always try to make a bad name for the 6 of us and our mother.

- How you have always try to poison my father about us.

- How you have coaxed my father to transfer money over to build a house or some shit and we see no benefits of it ourselves.

- How you have tried to rob and alter our father’s will when he was still alive!

- How you felt shocked and disappointed the will has not your names in it.

- How you are so eager to ask for money from a widow and children who had just lost their father.

- How you are so eager to get the flat back.

- How you are treating us like outcasts of the family .

- How you are not respecting our mother.

- How you not even bother to ask about if we are able to survive without our father and with 4 children still studying.

- How you are always the shit stirrer trying to divide one family over the other.

- How in your world, all other people’ kids are always bad.

- How you have never realised and said sorry for all of the above.

So, dont come back and tell me what i should do, how i should make the family proud, how the other surnames are millionaires and all these nonsenses. If you ever wonder why we seems to be keeping a distance, that’s because you first distanced from us. To mend, trace back your steps and come closer, dont expect us to do it for you.

Now i have grown up, i have learned to hide my real emotion in public to mix in, but some thoughts will never change in my heart.

You bullied a widow and her six children in time of need and grief for your own selfish greed. What good can you ever come to?

Oh, btw, remember the swimming pool? The mother of all blood clots that started all the mayhem that took away our father’s life? Stop accusing our mother for not knowing how to take care of our father! Stop accusing the children for giving him a hard time. We all know who has got the blood on their hands!

I rest my case.

Tom Hicks and George Gillette, take your filthty money and get lost please. Stay away from the club and thanks for nothing!

Not to see you both again.